I Learned

I learned a very long time ago 

To keep things buried deep inside 

Things you just don't talk about

The little secrets that we hide

I learned to be silent

How to bear my pain alone

I learned to rely on no one 

That I was pretty much on my own 

I learned to turn my emotions off

When it got too painful to feel 

I learned to put on a happy face

And pretend that I was real

I learned to become invisible that my feelings didn't matter 

I learned to die a little more until my life began to shatter, but then I learned to tell my story my written words, became my voice 

I learned to take my power back that I wasn't left without a choice.

This is where I left it I wrote this poem back in 2022 of October & I put my Journal up out of sight. Around this time I was going to a Therapist 2022 would be 2 yrs. I was learning to heal my inner child and to move past my childhood trauma 💔 I was verbally, mentally, emotionall abused. by ... not gonna say. my childhood wasn't all flowers and cupcakes. Bit seeing this poem brought me to tears because I felt this. I'm 100% my true self today but back then wow. I had and still have no friends so I was alone felt alone and trying to break this was my choice. So Friday ♥️  I added to this poem. I hope you like it. 

I learned to confront the shadows of my past,

To face the ghosts that I had tried to forecast.

I learned to heal, to mend, to slowly repair,

The pieces of my heart, the fragments of my care.

I learned to rise up, to take my stand,

To use my voice, to make my words expand.

I learned to love myself, to let go of the pain,

To find my strength, to rise above the shame.

I learned to listen to my heart, to trust my soul,

To accept myself, to make myself whole.

I learned to let go of the secrets, the lies, the fears,

To find my truth, to dry my tears.

I learned to hold on to hope, to never give up the fight,

To keep on moving forward, even in the darkest night.

I learned to find my resilience, to rise above the pain,

To learn from my mistakes, to love again.

I love yall!! ❤️ Thanks for reading my creativity & staying with me, I hope something of mine touches you in some way. 🤘🏻💋🖤

Ashleysmashley 💋🖖🏻